Shiraishi is self-harming. That was quite the shocker. And it got me thinking. I've been close to doing it myself, back when I was in Seigaku High. Never actually pulled through with it, but the thought has been there. Along with thoughts of suicide.

I think the way I purposely riled Marui up and how I tried to offer my body up to Niou once was my way of self harming. It's the best way I know how to. Through sex. People hurt me through sex. But it's also a way for me to use them to hurt me, at least concerning certain individuals. That's... probably pretty warped. It sometimes feel like I can't reach myself properly unless I get degraded and humiliated by someone else.

That's... probably my victim complex right there, eh.

This road I'm stumbling along that's supposed to be my life... When did it become so crooked?


[ooc: OOC Comments are welcome. =O;;]

Why am I doing this? To myself and the people I care about?

Damn it all.

I got a visit from Seiichi-kun and that was really nice. And...

Tezuka.

Thank you.

Echizen, you too.

Oishi, I'm sorry you had to arrive at camp at a time like this.

You might all hate me for this. Please, go ahead.

I won't apologize.

Marui had shit coming to him for over a year now.

This is a bit extreme, yes, but if you add up everything he's done; sexual abuse, maiming people, unfaithfulness and more. Yes.

I still say the best thing for Marui would be to lock him into an asylum for a year or two, but you can't have everything.

Maybe he'll at least think before he hurts someone again after this.


[ooc: And this entry is screened from Norio, because Fuji isn't completely heartless. >>;;]

Kite. Please don't kill Marui completely.

I want a piece of him. ♥

So, I guess things are looking up.

Aaaaaaaaaaand... I can't really believe that no one was chosen. Sounds pretty off if you ask me.

I guess we'll just wait and see.

Last year for Halloween I dressed up as a policeman. I wonder what I should do this year...

Well, I'm back. ^_^;;

I'm not supposed to participate in P.E for a bit, but other than that... Yes.

That was quite a ride, and thank you everyone who stopped by.

I just hope things will get back to normal soon and we can put this behind us.

Name 20 students at camp.

1. Atobe Keigo
2. Wakato Hiroshi
3. Kikumaru Eiji
4. Tachibana An
5. Marui Bunta
6. Ohtori Choutarou
7. Chitose Senri
8. Kawamura Takashi
9. Ryuzaki Sakuno
10. Zaizen Hikaru
11. Oshitari Yuushi
12. Tachibana Kippei
13. Akutsu Jin
14. Tezuka Kunimitsu
15. Niou Masaharu
16. Kabaji Munehiro
17. Osakada Tomoka
18. Yukimura Seiichi
19. Saeki Koujirou
20. Hirakoba Rin

( Answers here )

Now. This is what I do when I'm bored in the hospital but with access to a laptop. I indulge in some of my interests besides tennis.

Like this:



And this:





You're not getting a cut, because these things are too beautiful to be hidden away in any way. Nee?

Not feeling so good, so going to do this in one post and have it over and done with.

Saeki. Happy birthday. Be good, and remember that I'm thinking of you.

Atobe. Happy birthday. Hope your party was a blast.

Tezuka. All the best.

Oshitari. Happy birthday in advance.

Taki-san. Happy birthday in advance.

Trying to understand what happened and how it affected me and those around me will take time. Mom and dad are at odds right now; dad wants me to return to Tokyo to recover, mom wants me to stay here where I have my friends and my tennis, all in all my social network that keeps me going. Dad thinks that she's being too easy going with this, he thinks that I need the family now... But he's one to talk as he's abroad most of the time anyway. Mom knows me better than he ever would. I just feel bad he has to chew her head off because of me. I appreciate both their concerns of course and I feel that if there was a way to compromise where this matter is concerned I'd jump to it immediately. As things are now... It gives me a headache. Yumiko supports mom in this, and Yuuta got into a huge argument with both of them and told them that they'd at least could try and keep their bickering outside my hospital room.

I love my family. Just wish I knew a way to make them hurt less.

I can safely say this is the first time I've been part of a police investigation. They want me to tell them everything about Namase and our connection and I could just see how they thought I was the perverted one when I had to tell them I have been dating him. Like, little fag got what was coming to him or something. After that I refused to talk any more with them even though they barraged me with questions. I just curled up under the covers and cried, utterly pathetic... Dad had to shove them out and they got all mad at him for hindering the investigation or something. And of course the press was outside and like the vultures they are they took pictures and shoved their microphones in dad's face like there was no tomorrow.

At least I've heard that they don't get access to camp? That's wonderful. I can't wait to get back, in one way, but I want the situation between mom and dad to resolve itself first. And I just want the entire buzz to die down. If they manage to catch Namase, they've told me I have to testify. Which means I have to try and recover psychologically as much as possible, because I won't break down in the witness stand, thank you very much. So I've got this psychiatrist assigned to me. She seems kind enough, but I hate the thought of someone digging into my brain and twisting and turning everything I say until she has her own version of me based on what she thought she heard me say. I don't know... I just don't have all that great faith in shrinks. And I guess I'm afraid what she might dig up about my past, and whether it will be used against me in court or not. Or what mom and dad might find out, because there are things I really don't want them to know about.

Saeki, I... guess you know what I mean?

To everyone who showed how much they care and to everyone who put up with me when I was at my worst... Thank you. I love you guys, so much that those words don't really cover it, but that's all I can say.

Also, Atobe. Thank you for any strings you might have pulled.

Dan... I'm thinking of you. Stay strong. ♥

Sport's Day was fun~

I've been hanging out downtown a lot lately - well, not a lot a lot, but still - and I had a lovely time together with Momo and Echizen. Thank you, you guys~! But the next time... Maybe someone else could buy the food? >.> ♥

When I was out for a run today I happened upon a fox. Well, it was several meters away from me or it would have bolted, but it really was beautiful. I like being out in the forest, because it helps me relax. Now, if I should run into a bear or something... Maybe I won't be as relaxed, nee? Let's hope I don't. ♥

It's really about time I start planning what to give Tezuka for his birthday...

Also, Seigaku~! I have pictures from the sleepover if someone is interested. Just drop me a note and I'll give you the link to my photo album, okay?






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Tezuka is absolutely adorable when he sleeps. He didn't even wake up when I tickled his nose with a feather. ;.; But I guess I was a good boy and let him sleep. I'm... going to crash now, as we're obviously going to have a party tomorrow, so I need all the sleep I can get.

I'm so glad to see that Osakada-chan has arrived to camp as well~ It feels almost like being back in Seigaku now, only with an added bonus of everyone else. ♥

Sport's day is going to be fun! Aaaah, I wish I had asked Tachibana and Taka-san to do the three legged race together, I would have wanted to watch that. ;_; Or, that I signed up me and Saeki for it, but, but... ♥

[ooc: Why yes, he's evil. >.> And look at how subtly he's trying to sort out his feelings for Tachibana and Taka. NOT. >:|;;]

Ah, homework, how I've missed thee... Actually, I have, because it's nice to have something to work with during the evenings to keep your head occupied. ^^

I went back one year in my journal entries just for fun, and found that I posted this:

"Looking good~! ♥

Let's do our best in the finals, nee~?

Really, I've almost forgotten how fun it is to play tennis with people who really burn for the sport... ♥

And if it comes to singles 1... I think I might go up against Tachibana... O.o;;"

on August 30th, and my next entry was this:

"We lost the game in the finals. ^.^;; Oh well~ ♥

...And it seems like Akutsu's back. And... He's my roommate now.

This camp is just getting weirder and weirder... ♪"

^_^ I wonder how much I've changed during this past year? Looking at those posts, I'd say I haven't changed at all, but then again... Hm. ♥

Food for thought, eh?

The heart is a strange, strange thing. Sometimes it's strong and beats just for hope and power and the unyielding power to rise above everything. At other times it shatters just by the simplest push and you find yourself down, deep down in the bowels of the beast. Why must humans and every other living creature on this planet depend so much on such fickle a thing, one might ask, and the question is ever there, never changing, which is the same as its answer. It's also always there, never changing but the viewpoint of the people seeking the answer is always new, always individual and always right.

When someone's hurting and they're trying to reach out a hand, what do you do? Do you shun them? Do you embrace them? Do you say that no, that doesn't concern me, it's their heart that's hurting, not mine. Maybe that's selfishness, but maybe that's not wrong; it's merely a way for people to protect themselves from further harm, and stopping the pain from spreading all across the globe. If you do reach out and try to stop the other person's pain, try to mend their heart, maybe that's just butting in and meddling with things that really aren't your problem to begin with, but still, it's a way for you to reach out and stop the pain from spreading all across the globe. So what is the right and what is the wrong decision? Is there even one?

When you try your best to live the life you want for yourself, then maybe there aren't any right or wrong answers, or maybe all answers are right or all are wrong. One might never really know that, and when I feel like I'm in doubt like that, I actually tend to turn to religion, as odd as it might sound. When I'm feeling lost and confused, I'd like to think that at least there's someone up there who sees me for who I am and have the answers I'm afraid to look for in myself. I'm not saying that's everyone's way... It's just my way.

I guess you will find me at the shrine today.

I think Mamma Mia might just be the ultimate feel good movie I know. I love it. Completely and utterly. It's such a sweet story, the songs rock and the choreography is love~ ♥ It never fails to cheer me up. I guess I should write fanfiction or something about it, if I had the confidence. Or maybe just draw some fanart. I know I can manage stick fanart at least. ^.^

Summer's drawing to a close, but I guess that's fine. I've been able to rest quite a bit, and meeting up with Taka-san was lovely. I've really missed him. And I think things might be good between us, in spite of the sparse contact, which kind of feels both wonderful and a bit... bitter sweet, I might say.

My favorite Abba song is either Lay all your love on me or Thank you for the music. I'm not sure which one. ^^;; I know my old great grandmother over in Sweden owns all Abba's albums. On vinyl records. I remember coming there once when I was small, and I'd just sit there with all those records around me and look insanely happy. There's even a photo of that. ^.^;;



^.^ ♥ ♪

The Tower

Vague memories pushed back
I can’t let them drag me deeper yet
The door is carved directly in the tree which I stumble upon
And it opens
I hear faint wispers from the other side of the corridor, I don’t even bother to look
There could be noone there, I just know
No summer has ever touched this side of me
I dont feel cold, yet… Well, I cant feel anything!
Still, I can clearly see my breath to the point were I can almost taste it
This should’nt be - but I know it is all that exists
The Valley of Death that spreads out before me
Winter rule this place
My hands are touching the wall of ice that stands before me
I still can’t feel a thing
Water runs down the side of my arm, I must be warm
I never thought anyone would have the heart to send me here
She was a part of the world
I cant exist in ”normality”, why can’t I be like them?
Why can’t I?
Quick glimpses of perversity flashing through my open mind
I close it quickly
I wonder if my words could ever mean anything anymore to anyone
My mouth opens but I dare not make a sound
I need some hope I tell myself, knowing i’m a liar
But it’s a white lie
I think…
A Castle of Ice towering over me
My hatred fuels me to try to reach it, but I am nothing
And I want to be nothing
Not exist
Not choose sides
Not live forever nor die forever
I guess I was naive, but what else could I be?
But to be naive is to be blinded
I didnt know until it was too late
And here I am
I just noticed the wings on my back
What kind of angel am I?
A fallen one?
I wish not to pledge allegience to the force that put me here
I am forever its enemy
Even if I have to rip my wings of

From Here.

It sort of makes me want to branch out into poetry myself.

It’s raining today. I went up early to shower and Sae was still asleep. I didn’t want to wake him up so I didn’t. Maybe I should have, to be able to say good morning to him, but I didn’t. I’m still debating whether I ought to go home over summer break or not. I want to stay here if Eiji stays here, because we have so much to catch up on, but at the same time it would be nice to go home. I’d be able to see Yumiko and Yuuta and mom and dad and I need to check up on the cacti I left at home. Well, I’m sure they’re all right because mom promised she’d watch after them, but you can never be sure.

I still need to sort out what I’m doing here to begin with. Do I really wish to dedicate myself to tennis this much? I’m stuck in the same circle of people twenty-four seven, and some of them I like, and some of them I don’t. We’re living in some odd sort of micro world here, and I’m not sure this is what I want. All my dreams have been put on the backburner because of the tennis, and being stagnant in life doesn’t really seem like me. Well, it’s not like I know who I am anyway. I must have lost myself somewhere down the road and trying to make sense of myself and my situation only leads me to a dead end.

I guess I’m worried about Tachibana. Something’s rather off there, so much I’ve been able to gather, but I don’t wish to pry and people ought to be allowed to have their secrets, right? I don’t even feel comfortable writing his name out in public like this, even if this post is friends locked, but since I’ve done it in the past I’m not going to start some odd sort of double standards here.

I think I made some sort of bet with Marui, but I’m not certain. I don’t wish to think about him at all, so I haven’t really paid it much attention. Whatever happens, happens. And it isn’t exactly as if we’ve shaken hands on it or anything; it isn’t a sealed deal.

Where was I? Oh, yes. I’m slipping away from me. I look myself in the mirror and I see someone I don’t recognize. My hair’s dull and a bit too long, but I haven’t bothered taking care of it properly. I’m losing weight, I know I am. The tennis uniform I got when I came to camp is too big now. The shorts keep sliding down and I guess I have to ask for a new one, but then I have to write to mom and dad and tell them I need more money, and then they would like to know why… And then I’d worry them. I can’t afford to worry them, least of all mom. She was reluctant to let me go to camp to begin with; instead she wanted me to stay home – maybe take a year off from school until I’ve calmed down again – and work through what happened in class. In retrospect… Maybe she was right.

I barely see anyone from old Seigaku. And when I do… Got into a fight with Echizen, for example. And let’s not talk about how I behaved with Tezuka, shall we? That was the utter most low, really. I feel like I’m only keeping in touch with Momoshiro and Kaidou through the journals, and that’s barely. And I’m just as bad when it comes to Oishi and Inui. I miss Taka-san, but that alone doesn’t help me write to him or phone him or anything. I’m losing touch with the people dear to me, and it’s mostly my own fault. I can only hope I’ll patch things up with Eiji.

And really… Is this the Fuji Syuusuke I want to be? No. Quite far from it. I’ve tried talking to Shishido-sensei, but the words just doesn’t come out right. Maybe I need to see a shrink who has more experience? Would that even help? I’m not sure. I know I have issues, and that they won’t be solved just with a handful of fairy dust. This isn’t even the Fuji Syuusuke I was. I just don’t know where to find him again.

Saa… Is it a waste of time if you write a long, long entry and then decide it’s a bit too much and then delete it? ^_^;; I kind of did that just now~ At least it cleared my mind out for a while. Let’s hope it lasts. ♥ To sum it up though… I’m thinking a lot. ^_~


[ooc: Why yes, all the strikeouts are deleted. :x;; You’re free to comment on it ooc (or ic, what your muses would have answered to the post, had they been able to read it) if you feel like it, but don’t feel obliged to do so. Muse is just venting anyway. :/;; *pokes him*]

Summer's here~ ♥

Eiji's here~ ♥

I can't wait for summer holidays to begin. Well, now I've got that out of my system.

Kou-chan, Eel, Jirou~ ♥ Thank you for making a fairly boring camp less boring. I owe you one~ And I promise, no more ghost stories~ ♪

Baseball, hm? With Marui in the team. Well... Should our team even score one point, I'll be the happy one, that's for certain.

( Private )

I miss Eiji. Does anyone know if he's supposed to show here or not? ^.^

There aren't any cacti out in the woods, isn't that sad? I left my cacti back in my room - because they'll manage without being watered - but now I miss them. ;.;

/Random

Camping~♪

I think it's a nice change of pace, and I think I really need that right now, so the timing couldn't have been better. Now. Question. Is anyone interested in sharing tent with me? Eel? Kou-chan? We're going to have to round up four people though, and it looks like Oishi's already taken. ;.;

And honestly... I don't know what the gardener is complaining about. It's an excellent fertilizer, isn't it? ^.^?

Still. It's quite... unpleasant. So, no more? Please?

The expression 'eat dirt and die' is quite disgusting when you think about it.

Waaaakaaaatoooooo~~ ♥

I kind of miss you. Would you like to hang out for a bit? I'm bored. ^-^ And there's some nice photos I want to shoot, and I couldn't think of a better model. Please, say yes? Because you know... Shishido-sensei's assignment got me thinking and yes. I need to take more pictures. So. Want to humor me on this one? ♥


[ooc: Expect a private post from him soon. Uh... less cheery. But all in good time. (AKA when Gottis finished log with Zen. Orz. :x) But for now he's somewhat bouncy for being him, I guess. IDK :x]

Bake on, bake off... Well, that sounds fun, doesn't it? I hope my mortal enjoyed my gift, as it isn't much, but probably enough anyway. I like to bake however, and I will try my absolute best, because nee-chan would probably kill me if I ruined a good pastry with something 'hideous'. I'm hoping I won't ruin it, but then again... My tastes are my tastes. I know they're a bit on the controversial side. ♥

So. Keeping to the academic side of things might be a good idea. I don't know what to write as far as my personal life is concerned. I guess my mind's just full of thoughts that don't seem to make any sense, and I'm struggling to find back to myself as it is. I felt almost at home a couple of days ago... Because I went up to the music room together with Tachibana, and I played the piano. It was wonderful; I could just let go and have my mind wander with the music, my fingers worked on their own and I felt at ease for the first time since... Well. That's just it. It's a very long time now that I've been feeling slightly under the weather.

And it's not getting better, as I can't really spend all my time by the piano. Or on the courts. I need to do things that keep me in the now, and makes my body move on its own... Heh. Maybe I should try and reach Muga no Kyouchi? I'm rather positive I can not. Maybe someone would like to try it with me? It would be good to really devote myself to tennis again.

( PRIVATE )

( Screened to Rai )

Well, yesterday was pretty exciting, wasn't it... ^^;; I'm sorry if I made anyone worry~ ♥

Swimming lessons...? ^^;; Well, well. Can't say I'm too thrilled, but I guess it's always better to be safe than sorry. I'm munching on the last few candy mom brought to me and I don't want them to end, but... There went the last one. Too bad, they were tasty! (*¬*)

Things... Are not all good, but it's not all bad either. I will manage somehow. And to please some people (the anon meme comes to mind here~ ♥) I've cut my hair. Back to my normal hairdo now. It was a pain to maintain my Sailormoon hair after all. Still, the Sailormoon/Lina game was fun~! ♥

Class H2-1

1. Left or Right?
2. Coffee or Tea?
3. Sweet or Sour?
4. The Pacific or the Mediterranean?
5. Happy Ending or Ending that leaves you Thinking?
6. Roses or Chocolate?


And to my old classmates~ ♥ Continue to be beautiful both on the inside and the outside, nee? ♪

In the end, I never went home. Oh well... I will have that assignment ready tomorrow, Sakamoto-sensei~ ♥ Hm. Questions, questions, huh...?

I... Think I need a small break from LJ for a while, so if I don't reply to comments, or update just as much... I'm sorry? ^.^;;

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[ooc: Why yes, Fuji has been locked up in his room since the party on Saturday night. Only comes out every now and then for food - which happened the first time on Monday - and he refuses to meet his parents, even though his dad more or less tried to whack the door in. I guess one of the teachers might expect a visit from distressed Fuji parents sooner or later? :| If any of you feel up for a log, please let me know. ^^;; And when Fuji does show himself, he looks about as pale and sick as a ghost with a flu. Uhm. Yes. >.>]

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Anyone have any good anime to recommend for a lazy day? ^.^

So. I now have hair almost as long as Sailormoon. I find that very odd, but... I'll keep it. At least for a week. ^.^ ♥ I won't be able to care for it properly any longer than that, I'm afraid.

Things most certainly haven't been boring around here lately, and I guess a hello to my new friend the Eel is in place~ ♥

Akutsu, I don't think you'll miss me too much... But I must say I'm looking forward to rooming with Kou-chan~! ^o^

( Private )

Congratulations, everyone, especially Team 2~ ♥!

Well, we did our best at least, and that's what counts. ^.^ I had fun. I actually enjoyed playing with you, Niou, for all it's worth.

Seems like Tezuka's team won~ ♥ Pity I don't get to play either him or Echizen or Atobe, hm... Well. I can cheer you people on at least! =^.^=

( Private )

I have a secret~ ♪

Finally, tennis~ ♥ I'm sure it's going to be fun, and may the best team win~ I hope I get to play against someone who's really challenging, and I hope that whoever faces me will find me a worthy opponent.

Let's all do our best, Team 4~! ♥

That time of the year is approaching again... ♥

^.^

Turned in my English Assignment. I think it went rather well, even though I guess I addressed things I usually never do. It got quite personal, but I suppose it's all right, since I have confidence Echizen-sensei won't show it to anyone else. I believe those kind of things are rather confidential, yes? ^.^??

Yuuta, your birthday is coming up~! Anything you wish for? And I believe it's Ohtori-kun's birthday soon as well, nee?

Since someone... I think maybe Niou? I don't remember... But anyway. Someone talked about Saw and Hostel. And all though I've seen Saw, I hadn't seen Hostel... So I went right ahead and rented it. Well... ^^;; It's a bit gory~ Not that Saw isn't, but still... A lot of vomit. ^^;; Blood I can take. Vomit... Not so much. ^^;; I actually had to look away a few times.

I do think I like the psychology behind Saw better.

/Random

^.^

I'm thinking dinner. The old gang. And some games. Or something. What do you think? I for one want to catch up with everyone. ^.^

^_^

♥

Now, isn't this odd~

Just like fractals goes on for ever and ever and ever, time is also next to never ending. Now we're approaching the end of yet another year, and in a few months it's my birthday. I'd like to think that I've achieved something this year. I know for a fact that I'm happier now, as I've been away from Seigaku High for over half a year. I'm very grateful for the camp/boarding school because of this. I just haven't been able to actually say it until now. I also know I've managed to be proven very wrong. Ghosts are real. If someone asked me about that a year ago, I'd just smile at them and perhaps poke a little fun at them for being so silly~ ♥

My health have been so-so this year. I think some of it is psychological, If I'm to be honest about it. I've been under a lot of stress, school wise, and a lot of that stress left when I got here. And that, of course, demanded that a reaction followed. It's only natural. Right now... I'm feeling rather weak, actually. But I'm resting and right now I'm sitting in my bed with a nice, large cup of coffee next to me and a bag of dried mango chips in my lap. Quite comfortable~ ^.^

Everyone... Best of luck in the New Year, nee~? ^.^

And Happy Birthday, Echizen! ^.^

What's this I hear about a ghost? O.o This was new to me...

How's everyone been? I've been pretty good, but I'm still feeling a little bit off. I'll go see the nurse tomorrow, just to make sure.

Other than that, I really don't have much to write right now. ^^;; Maybe I'll make a small Christmas list? Just for fun~ ♥

1. This seems very, very nice. ^o^
2. This is love. ♥
3. ♥

There~ ♥

( Private to Niou )

( Private )

I'm having a blast here~ Wintersports are really wonderful and I'm so happy I decided to come! ♥♥♥

Atobe, my sympathies, and I hope you'll get better soon.

Now that I've got that out of my system...

Bandwagon jumping~ ♥

1. The love of my life:
2. Where you and I met:
3. Take a stab at my middle name (spelling counts):
4. How long you've known me:
5. The last time that we saw each other:
6. Would I ever go sky diving?
7. Your first impression of me upon meeting me/seeing me:
8. Am I funny?
9. My favorite type of music:
10. Can I sing?
11. The best feature about me:
12. What do I want to do more than anything?
13. What is one thing that you think I should do?
14. Do I have any special talents? If so, what are they?
15. Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else?
16. Have you ever hugged me?
17. My favorite food:
18. Have you ever had a crush on me?
19. If there was one good nickname for me, it would be:
20. Your favorite memory of me:
21. If you and I were stranded on a desert island, I would bring:
22. Do I believe in God?
23. Who is my best friend?
24. Will you re-post this so I can fill this out for you?

( private )

^_^ Camp within a camp-turned-school-turned-something~ ♥

Everyone be good, nee?

Now then… I hope you’ll have a wonderful, wonderful day~! I’ll drop of a small little something tomorrow, okay? ^_^ I hope you’ll like it~ ♥

Seigaku people~ Me and Oishi have been talking a bit, and I was wondering… How would you feel about a small get together soon? We could go to the hot spring and then make it a day out in the woods or something~

I hope no one will nominate me as a prefect, I wouldn’t want to deal with that kind of responsibility… ^_^;; It just isn’t me~ Still, I’m curious to see who’s going to win this. Let’s hope it’s someone from Seigaku, nee? ♥ Tezuka, Tezuka, Tezuka

No bad or weird dreams to report today~ Mostly because I haven’t really slept all that much. I don’t even know why. I just can’t seem to relax enough… ^^;; I hope I’m not disturbing Akutsu’s sleep all that much with my twisting and turning and going up in the middle of the night for something to drink… ^o^;; If only I knew what it is that’s keeping me on my toes and I could do something about it… Oh well, I’m sure it will resolve itself eventually. ♥

Maybe I’m coming down with something? Hopefully not, I’ve already been sick this semester. >.>;; I think I’m taking care of myself well enough, so I hope that’s not the case. Hm. I might just go to the nurse anyway, just in case. Sae-chan, wanna come with me to hold my hand? I’d hate to be unwell in December of all months. ^.^ ♥

Oh, and Wakato-kun~ I’ve got the maid outfit~! I even managed to find one for you. ♥ If you want we can meet up now and look cute together. ^.~ Maybe we could try a tennis game dressed like that. You up for that? ♥ Of course, anyone who’s interested could come and watch~ ♥

[ooc: Eiji’s present is a pair of roller blades, a collection of small tubes of choice toothpastes – vanilla, chocolate/chilli, green tea/mint and liquorice - and a pyjama with a cutesy cat logo. And the strikeouts are only regular strikeouts. Fully visible. =D]